Who's On First?
Beck is as close as I will designate to a "cultural institution" in my lifetime. From the quintessential quality of "Loser" to the seminal sissynecking of "Odelay" the man has never misfired. With all of his genius, I never thought Beck could take a backseat to anybody. That was until I went upstairs at the State Theater.
Right before Beck took the stage last night my lovely girlfriend Malissa asked if we could sit down for Beck's set. I ache at the slightest spell of standing up, so I was happy to oblige. As we scouted seats and finally sat down on the mezzanine level, section D, I was dumbstruck at whom we were sitting behind.
In front of us, in all his bald-headed glory was Kirk Gibson.
Now some of you may not know this name, but to those of you who are not faithful Detroiters or above-average baseball fans, Kirk Gibson was a quintessential member of the Detroit Tigers in the 1980s. This may seem as no big deal, but as a young chap baseball was my passion, only to be replaced with music around the age of 12.
I spent 90 percent of my childhood summers playing baseball and the rest stuck on I-94 in between games of baseball. I read box scores, kept my own personal statistics and bought packs of baseball cards like it was all that was keeping me alive. For all I know, it was.
You see, my dad was a baseball coach... still is in fact. Morris Blackwell is a fixture on Detroit baseball diamonds for the past five decades. He used to work at Tiger Stadium when he was in college. He claims he was the one who wheeled 3,007 silver dollars onto the field as the club awarded Al Kaline one for each hit of his career.
My father's labor stint at the stadium meant he would never resort to buying tickets for a game at the Corner (of Michigan and Trumbull, i.e. Tiger Stadium for those of you who don't know). Instead, we'd go to the crew entrance and wait for someone he knew to walk by and get them to sneak us in. This enraged my mother to no end, but she never came to games with us anyways.
But back to the point, my father's love of the game was faithfully instilled in me at a young age, a love that I was proud to live and carry on every time I recited the infield fly-rule. I, sometimes to my chagrin, played on his teams and he, much to the test of his temper, coached me. It is by far the most precious time a father and son can spend together.
Little things about baseball just take me back... the gravel dust smell of your bat bag, a cheekful of watermelon-flavored Big League Chew, the fresh cut grass on the fields you played (Clark Park's small diamond, almost exclusively) to the hassle of stirrups that never stayed up over your calves. Looking back at these memories, Kirk Gibson seems to magically appear as if he was always there.
So as I sat there, awaiting the Guero himself to take the stage, I couldn't help but be distracted. For chrissakes it was Kirk Gibson in front of me! The rest of the show would find me racking my brain and realizing that Gibby and Beck shared a lot of similarities in relation to my life.
• Kirk Gibson was the first famous person I ever met. On December 23, 1988, my brother and I walked the two blocks from our home to Jim Saros Realtors where Gibby, Dave Rozema, Dan Petry and Dave Bergman were signing autographs and posing for photos. We were given a Polaroid of the meeting. It stood on my bedroom dresser for a few years.
• I met Beck in Ann Arbor in 2002 after he played an emotionally stirring acoustic show. He didn't have much to say, (I guess Gibby didn't either). There are no photos of us together. I would meet Beck a few more times in later years and even go to a party at his house, where his wife served delicious snickerdoodles.
• Beck wrote "Loser" a song that supposedly defines my generation. After you hear a claim like that enough, people begin to believe it whether or not it is anywhere near the truth. I say screw that... I think that Odelay is the most important album of the '90s, a free-spirited and ambitious response to his being tagged a "slacker" that produced arguably the best music videos and best album artwork of the decade. The fact that he turned down a six-figure offer from Pepsi to license "Where It's At" only makes it all the sweeter. The fact that "Where It's At" the first single off the album and arguably the best song on the disc is track six makes it that much cooler. Odelay has better (and more legal) sampling than Paul's Boutique and explores far more musical genres successfully than anything else in recent memory. And I think Beck himself knows this, as his latest album Guero is, in regards to Beck albums, essentially "Odelay 2."
• Gibby hit two homeruns to clinch the title for the Tigers in Game 5 of the 1984 World Series. He was immortalized on the front page of the Detroit Free Press with his fists in the air with the headline "Gr-r-reat!"
This broadsheet would later be canonized in the form of a glossy poster. Somehow a stack of 50 ended up at my house (my dad could work miracles). It would be on my bedroom wall for quite some time. The moment itself would be considered one of the only bright spots for Detroit in the 1980s (next to crack cocaine, the emergence of Japanese automobiles and Devil's Night) and even though I was too young to remember 1984, I definitely longed for its days, even if it was only for a winning baseball team. Within Detroit, 1984 was viewed as a pinnacle, a time within recent memory (not necessarily mine) where things seemed to be all right.
And this is still evident today in Detroit. You're not a true hipster in town if you don't have a vintage '84 Tigers t-shirt. I found a suitcase full of 'em at a flea market three years ago. Never worn. Three bucks a piece. It was heaven. I began handing them out to friends "Can't be in the scene without a Tigers t-shirt, they may think you're from Toledo." It's one of the few vintage t-shirts that seems to transcend irony, where people can agree "Yeah, the '84 Tigers... they were badass!" And there's never been a better professional baseball logo then the old Tiger with those hypnotizing eyes. That shit is scary.
The way this city pined for 1984 was truly hilarious. My brother's kindergarten class composite photo included a board that read "Stay Alive in '85." The next season hadn't even started and all we were asking was for the team to merely not die.
• Kirk Gibson was never a fan favorite on the Tigers. That spot was always reserved for Alan Trammell. Gibby refused to sing autographs and was often rude to the media. But you couldn't deny the guy on the field, he consistently delivered. Gibby was Fonzie while Tram was Richie Cunningham. No more proof is needed when you see Tram was picked to manage the Tigers while Gibby barely made it as a hitting coach.
Likewise, no matter how long he's around, Beck will always be slightly overshadowed (in my mind at least) by Kurt Cobain. Kurt had the biggest influence on the 1990s, even if he was dead for more than half the decade. Nevertheless, Beck could kill a hooker and hijack a plane to Cuba and he'll still always be seen as not as badass as Kurt Cobain.
• • My best friend in grade school, Rob Topolewski, is by far the biggest Kirk Gibson fan in the world. He had numerous items in his bedroom autographed by Gibby (always the same too, "To Rob, my best, Kirk Gibson"). At the same Jim Saros signing my brother and I attended, Rob showed up too. But he showed up with a Los Angeles Dodgers jersey.
You see, this is considered "quirky" for a first grader because in one of the tragedies of free agency Gibby went to the Dodgers in 1988. Rob, being a loyal fan, simply showed his support for Kirk by getting the jersey for Gibby's new team. I understood it wholeheartedly (especially as a 6-year-old) and probably would have done the same thing if I were his biggest fan. But adults don't seem to get that... Rob's picture with Gibby made it into the Detroit Free Press the next day.
• My good friends the Whirldwind Heat are all rabid Beck fans, moreso than I could ever be. They covered his obscure b-side "Fume" as the b-side to one of their own singles and almost got Beck to play on their debut album (apparently his major label contract made the possibility messy on the legal end). First impression on seeing them live back in 2000 was that lead singer David Swanson seemed to be pulling a little too many tricks from Beck's on-stage persona. Hell, Whirlwind Heat was opening for Beck on this night at the State Theater and would end up on stage jamming with him for the encore of "E-Pro."
• I often cite Beck's show at Pine Knob on June 2, 1998 as a defining moment of my teenage years. My newfound friend Alan Truhan had just gotten his license and was looking for excuses to drive, a Beck concert a half-hour away being the perfect example. The show was my first exposure to pure fucking showmanship... it was as close to James Brown live at the Apollo that a poor white boy like me will ever get. The show was on one of the final legs of touring for Odelay, but Beck's set was nothing short of sensational and was a prime example of how you can make one kid in a 15,000-seat amphitheater feel that the show is only happening for him.
• Without fail, any person close to my age and doing anything creative in this city now seems to have attended that show. That has proven itself time and time again. It's a gauge for me... if I meet some 23 years old from the Detroit area and they weren't at that show, I begin to question how in touch they actually are. Knowing that myself and a couple thousand other youths watched this show together, that idea of a shared moment, really feels significant and pivotal.
• Kirk Gibson was the force behind the most inspiring moment in baseball history. Game 1 of the 1988 World Series found Gibby pinch-hitting with two outs in the bottom of the ninth. He'd been kept out of the starting line-up with a leg injury and was visibly in pain with each swing. Facing the Oakland Athletics' Dennis Eckersley, hands-down the league's best closer at the time, Gibby sends a 3-2 pitch over the right field wall to end the game. He hobbled the bases and pumped his fists. It was his only at-bat of the series. Watching replays of it more than 15 years after it happened it still gives me chills (the only other sports related moment to replicate this feeling is the final fight sequence from The Karate Kid).
• The above-mentioned situation is, without fail, the most imagined hypothetical moment in front yard baseball for any kid. When Gibby put that ball over the fence, there were millions (dads, kids... anyone who ever cared about the sport) who all thought "Holy shit... I practiced that exact same play 20,000 times on my lawn when I was 8-years-old." And it transcends baseball and can be applied to any sport. The idea of stepping in at the last minute, a little weary, to save the day... shit, that's America for you.
• My first time singing karaoke was Beck's "New Pollution." It was a Mexican cowboy bar in Grant's Pass, Ore. and there were whispers around that our table (containing the rest of the Dirtbombs and our label mates the Ponys) "was fags." I even broke my self-imposed vow of temperance and took a shot of whiskey to calm my nerves (never mind that I smeared myself with peanut butter on stage not two weeks before... ). Karaoke is weird, especially considering the fact that I don't think that it's weird when I take the mic and sing with the Dirtbombs. Either way, I busted out my Beck-inspired dance moves and got roaring applause... even if it was only from the Ponys and Dirtbombs. I'd forgot what I did most every day (play in a rock band, duh) and it felt exciting to channel a rock star and live vicariously through their song.
As I dwell on both subjects, it becomes very clear that I identify them with different periods in my life. Gibby is my youth, when all I needed was a ball and a mitt. But deeper than that, I associate Gibby with my father, at a time when he and my mother were still together, when my life was baseball and so was his. It was a time in my life of unparalleled happiness, when the world and its possibilities felt endless. Not only did I really think I could become a professional baseball player, I had to be one, there was just no other option. As much as I'd like to deny it, something kinda changes when your parents separate, especially when you never even consider it a possibility beforehand. As I think back, it seems that my love of baseball is what started to wane when my parent's marriage did.
Beck is me now, and even more, I associate Beck with my Uncle Jack. Forget that Jack played on Guero and all that crap, it's the idea of Beck that I associate with my Uncle Jack. It's the concept of forging your own path in life, not worrying about what other people expect of you, things that I glean from my uncle that I also seem to be able to attribute to Beck. The fact that life sometimes contains disappointments and sadness is clear with Beck (just listen to Sea Change) and has been explained and displayed to me via my uncle. At the same time, the idea that the world is vast sea of possibilities where anything can and will happen is my Uncle Jack's life story.
Just as both Beck and Kirk Gibson hold equal weight as far as significance in my life, my dad and Uncle Jack too both hold equal responsibility in instilling values and appreciations with me while I was still impressionable. While I may have dedicated my life (by this point, at least) to music, I can look back to my time playing and following baseball with unequaled longing and nostalgia. Just as Midnite Vultures will forever be the soundtrack to van tours with the White Stripes, Kirk Gibson will be the guy in the back of my mind when I was 6 years old standing on second base.
Anyway, the Beck show was solid... the tracks off Guero worked well and although his band seemed to be hobbled together they managed to click on a few instances, especially on their dinner table percussion accompaniment of "Clap Hands." Of course, the songs off "Odelay" were impeccable and the highlight of the show would have to be the ten-foot tall ghettoblaster descending from the ceiling during "Where It's At". Gibby left during a solo acoustic song. I didn't say anything to him. I'm glad I didn't. Some things are best left in the past.